It has been a while.
The holidays were not as bad as last year. We managed to get together as a family on Thanksgiving and Christmas Eve/ Christmas. Everyone got along. Like walking on ice with my family.
Today would have been my mother's 90 birthday. Yesterday my husband and I went out to a fancy dinner at Salty's with my son, daughter-in-law (who has the same birthday as my mother) and grand-daughter. It was very nice and we had a great time.
As we were driving home I was looking at the river and the moonlight. (I think it is almost a full moon.) I was over powered with thoughts of my mother. There is a song by Carley Simon from the album Letters Never Sent, Like A River. After my mother died my ex son in law told my sister about the song, he had heard it on a PBS show featuring Carley. It captures it so clearly. Carley lost her mother and wrote the song for her, and all of us. If I knew how to link it here I would.
It has been 16 years and I still miss her so much. So much I want to share with her. Now I get to do it with my daughters. (Well, one of them)